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[01 Jan 2008|12:00am] [ mood | accomplished ] 2 Let Me Know

2 hr. [13 Apr 2003|05:50pm] [ mood | exhausted ] ~don't touch me please~I cannot stand the way you tease~ You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only love in your sweet kisses. What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla Bored. Blah. Thought I'd make a Public most, wth. Andy's and Ashley's parties were last night... ah, great times, and i'll leave it at that on here! ;] Happy Birthday Ash , since today is your real bday! 2 Let Me Know

Friends is my Life *lol* [06 Apr 2003|02:25pm] [ mood | lazy ] ~tell me what you thought about~when you were gone and so alone~the worst is over~you can have the best of me~we got older but we're still young~we never grew out of this feeling~that we won't give up~here we lay again on two separate beds~riding phone lines to meet a familiar voice~and pictures drawn from memory~we reflect on miscommunications and misunderstandings~and missing each other too much to~we've had to let go~turn our music down~and we whisper, "say what you're thinking right now"~jumping to conclusions made me fall away from you~i'm so glad that the truth has brought back together~me and you~we're sitting on the ground and we whisper~"say what you're thinking out loud"~we got older but we're still young~we never grew out of this feeling~that we won't give up~ Changed the look of my journal a little bit, not a big fan of it... but I just needed change, I'm still trying to think of something else to do with it really... so, if you have any ideas... ya know what to do ;p No plans for the day, probably just sit around... do work & watch some of the 10 hours of Friends I have now *lol* it's great... I'm not too happy with the whole lossing an hour thing right now... it hasnt hit me hard yet, but i'm sure when i wake up tomorrow morning for school, it just might... seeing when i get up at 7 it will actually be 6 am... paLikAni 386: haha.. i like that word.. lol.. yeah ness.. you are a real SHADY person!!!! 8-) you have no idea brit :p ... i must say... it's be interesting word of the day... 4 Let Me Know

give me one good reason... [06 Apr 2003|12:20am] [ mood | irritated ] ~Climb out on this rooftop~and stare at the city lights below us~this world belongs to us tonight~the kids will keep ragin' on~and they ain't never gonna stop~"We Are the Champions" playing out on the radio station~everyone sing along with these anthems of our generation~cruisin' down Pacific Coast Highway~put the top down, crawl into the back seat~let's create anthems of our own tonight~ `-* wearing= pj bottoms, ND tshirt `-* feet= socks `-* hair= straight, up `-* jewelry= none `-* makeup= none `-* eating= nothing `-* drinking= Apple juice ;p `-* smelling= nothing `-* thinking= how people which are bitches & fake piss the hell outta me :] ... aren't i open tonight `-* craving= Friends [the show] `-* hearing= wind `-* wishing= i can't tell ya that one ;x `-* talking to= Tim B `-* after this= keep talkin' to tim, watch friends? write a friends only journal... bc i got some biiiittchin' to do :p Jacobee Jamboree was tonight. Fun but hot and crowded. I'll leave it at that, for now. I'm pissy. annoyed. irriated. I hate Fake Bitches. Girls are way too dramatic about everything, and need to stop talking shit. Don't judge people, over stupid shit. How old are you? Grow up. Woah... stoppin' now... =p Found out that Ash & Andy's partys next weekend... oh, it's goin' to be a hell of a good time ;D ... I can't wait...two of the best people ever's bdays :D esp. my shady spoiled bitch ;p 2 Let Me Know

strawberry friends... forever [05 Apr 2003|03:29pm] [ mood | blah ] ~off to college~yes you went away~straight from high school~you up and left me~we were close friends~also lovers~did everything for one another~now you're gone~and I'm lost without you here now~but I know I gotta live and make it somehow~~now I'm sittin' here~thinkin' 'bout you~and the days we used to share~It's drivin' me crazy~I don't know what to do~I'm just wonderin' if you still care~I don't wanna let you know~that it's killin' me~I know you got another life you gotta concentrate baby~ [ i love that song... "i miss you"... the video is so sad about aaliyah] *woah* -- i'm soo tired yesterday; school was school. took my pots home from class, found out i have a 77 in trig [so don't figure i will be on the whole spring break... seeing we get our report cards the day before (what assholes!)], my speech went... well, gym is a bitch and i hate mrs. bobb. after school i went home... did whatever, then went to a banquet for my 'rents friends bc their house burnt down alittle while ago... then i left Really Early bc I was going to go with Jade and Josh to Judes... so I went home at 7:30 called Jade and she said they'd be here as soon as katrina got there... well i was still waiting at 8:30 and wasn't very happy about it at all... seeing i felt bad for leaving the banquet to begin with tand then i sit at home for an hour... any who, they finally got here and we all went over to judes and just hung out the rest of the night and watched Jackass once Scott and Britney got there... so it was all good, then I went to Blockbuster on my way home... no one was there!! and i just talked to the ppl working and ended up getting Sweet Home Alabama even though I went to see if they had Friends Season 3 today... so far i got up and got ready and went to the mall bc i had to get my hair chemically straightened [i doubt anyone really gets what im talking about... just one of those things that people from around here wouldn't understand (not being racist but... you just dont get it)]... anyways got that done and then walked around the mall with mother... i can't stand her anymore... we dont agree on anything and we have nothing alike... she is so freaking moody and if i say Any word in the wrong manner she flips out and of course... EVERYTHING is my fault... what a bitch saw mrs. harkness [cheerleading coach] and her daughter up at the mall... we talked alil about getting the new uniforms and about how its going to be so much better this year bc now we won't have a certain someone [which was the reason almost everyone wasnt going to do it this year] anyways... i'm exhausted and if i want to make it through the night at jakes i needa get rest lol :p so i'm off to either go watch Sweet Home Alabama or Friends Season 3 [bc i got it today :D] 6 Let Me Know

[03 Apr 2003|05:09pm] [ mood | crying ] seriously... could my mom make this any worse... i go to her for help and advice and see that to do about this whole gym thing [take the incomplete or take the bad grade] -- i get: i can't believe you you arent goin to be in honor society anymore you wait until the years that caught to screw EVERYTHING up you should've known this is goin to look so bad for colleges you aren't goin to make honor roll now ALL OVER A FUCKING GYM CLASS... i just needed someone to comfort me, tell me i'd be alright and it was just a gym class... no biggy but no... i get bitched at and yelled at over this all... i can't take this today... omg 7 Let Me Know

*sigh* [03 Apr 2003|04:23pm] [ mood | cranky ] ~some days goes ur way~u're on a roll u can't explain~and then it all goes down the drain~ur cat's hit by a car~the ATM eats ur card~u're wondering what changed from yesterday~my best friend & me one night~were drinkin' @ Pete's on Crescent Height~just like that we end up in a fight~like a yo-yo up & down~u're headin' north, u end up south~save me from, from going mental~save me from spinning out~some days r better~some days r never~some days, whatever~some days r better than lovers~some days u just can't figure out~some days r better than others~some days u just can't get out~someday... ~ `-* wearing= Duckie pink aero shirt `-* feet= socks - boring white `-* hair= curly, up `-* jewelry= watch, shell necklace `-* makeup= barely any... all gone `-* eating= Chips Ahoy Minis `-* drinking= Capri Sun `-* smelling= haha... what a joke, i still can't breathe outta my nose `-* thinking= *gr* what a freakin' day `-* craving= sleep/ relaxation `-* hearing= fish tank and about ready to go insane `-* wishing= i never went to 9th period `-* talking to= no one [and that's a good thing] `-* after this= hmwk, tv, vent to mom, go to gym with shelby Today was stressful, I was just saying last night how stressed i've felt and how i just can't take anymore or anything... there is no one specific thing stressing me, i'm just moody and constantly stressed between school & friends mainly -- i've wanted to explode... well today i got my chance and i did. we had no PSSA testing all day so it was a normal day, nothing really went on all day... until 9th period... i was already pissed because i heard i had to make up all my gym classes ive missed since last friday because of "m" [guess and you'll probably know... im not getting into this] and i was pissed because i never knew that before... so, i go and asked Bobb about when i could Swim to make it up... and shes like well the only time you have is next Tuesday when you can make it up, and i'm like well i have to make up 5 classes, and she's like well there is nothing i can do about it... and i flipped i'm like you can't do that, bc i cant control what is going on with my body i cant just magicly say it to stop and i *gr* tweaked out on her about how i didn't know and if i knew then i wouldve made them up before and if i only made up my one class on tuesday part of my grade would be down to an 80 when it should be a 100 bc of stupid reasons... to make a long bitch section short... i tweaked and started crying, yes... you did not read wrong... i cried, and i don't cry... and most of you that know me even alittle know that. the last time i cried in public was over a year ago and that was one on one to some one and just a complete different situation, either way... it wasnt that i was sad or anything it was that i was so pissed and frustrated and irriated and angry, i just started and everyon was like holy shit, bc they know how i am bc some of my closest friends are in my gym class... either way... Lacey wasn't swimming so i just sat and calmed down and talked to her for most of the period about how stupid everything was and how i couldnt believe something so gay would come out of all this... so then after the period was over Bobb called my into her office and was like alright, well there is only one other option [yes, you tell me this Now Bitch after i go fucking crying half a freaking gym class... gr i HATE her] she's like i can give you an incomplete and you can make it up and then you get ur grade later, i'm like alright... whatever i'll do that... bc that is better than getting that grade from her, ya know... so anyways That was my day or at least afternoon then... i got home and started thinking.. this incomplete better not affect my national honor society thing [i know i will not make honor roll - but as long as i have a 92 i can be in the honor society and idc about the honor roll thing bc i know why im not on it and its not the fact my grades are bad its the fact i have a gay ass swimming teacher]... *argh* i'm still so stressed and the most all this stuff goes on and i get more and more frustrated by the things around me i realize that the last thing i need to be getting stressed over is freaking guys bc i have alittle lately and it's so stupid bc i have enough going on in my life than to sit around thinking about them... now i'm goin to do hmwk and stuff until 6 when shelby gets out of work and we are going to the gym to renew our memberships *yay* :] 2 Let Me Know

blah... [02 Apr 2003|05:26pm] [ mood | drained ] ~how can I be strong I've asked myself~time and time I've said~that I'll never fall in love with you again~a wounded heart you gave~my soul you took away~good intentions you had many~I know you did~I come from a place that hurts~and god knows how I've cried~and I never want to return~never fall again~making love to you~oh it felt so good and~oh so right~so here we are alone again~didn't think it'd come to this~and to know it all began~with just a little kiss~I've come too close to happiness~to have it swept away~don't think I can take the pain~no never fall again~kinda late in the game and my heart is in~your hands~don't you stand there and then tell me you love me~then leave me again~hold me, hold me~don't ever let go~say it just one time~say you love me~ [lalala... idk if i'm going to keep up this lyric thing at the beginning of each entry... they are getting boring, and really have nothing to do with my entry or what's going on usually] wow - it is only wednesday... today was boring, and i'm exhausted because i have no gotten sleep in two days :/ german sucked - i def. failed that test & i'm just so sick of that man and everything he pulls with us this year, i could honestly care less - i hate it, i hate the class, him, GERMAN in general; pottery was fun and i just painted all period... i need to get stuff graded artsfest is sooooonnn ;] yay; w.c. was world cultures... Dr K taught us about the saying "Balls to the wall" very interesting i must say... he was def. on some major drugs while in the marines... no doubt about it; trig two words - screw gigee *gr*; english was alright... no speeches today so mine is now on friday-- yay; chem was boring; after that we had PSSA testing til the end of the day... i probably did horrible on that section of the test... who in the right mind puts a big test like that at the end of the day when everyone is tired, oh ya that's right... our school does! once again... idc, bc it effects me in no way... i'm wasting my brain power... ah the little i have left =o anyways, had a meeting today about Camp Brule... oh it's goin' to be interesting for the most part it's a bunch of sophmores, a few of us juniors and my girls Kal, Elena, Butt and Crawford & of course the little 6 graders [ aka -- my little stalkers]... ah, it will be great [unless it rains]... 4 Let Me Know

tired tuesday [01 Apr 2003|10:36pm] [ mood | stressed ] ~It's late in the evenin, she's wondering what clothes to wear~she puts on her makeup and brushes her long blonde hair~and then she asks me "Do I look all right?"~and I say "Yes you look wonderful tonight."~we go to a party and everyone turns to see~this beautiful lady that's walkin around with me~and then she asks me "Do you feel all right?"~and I say "Yes I feel wonderful tonight."~I feel wonderful because I see~the love light in your eyes~and the wonder of it all~is that you just don't realize how much I love you. ~it's time to go home now~ and I've got an aching head~so I give her the car keys~and she helps me to bed~and then I tell her as I turn out the light~I say "My darling, you were wonderful tonight, Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight"~ [i love that song... beyong belief] Today was like another monday... I was soo tired and just not in the mood for anything really. Just "one of those days" *yuk* ... and to top it off... we had PSSAs all morning... wo freakin' hoo... lol, ends up we didn't get our breakfast on time... so we had tests from 1st til 6th period... testing sucked, we did all math today because of the time mess up... the highlights of the morning were getting attacked by ants during my test and heather and i dieing of laughter and still trying to make it so no one saw... and then everyone freaking out bc a centipede was running around the floor during the test... hey, athens has this massive bug and rodent problem... what can i say... i hate the place. After testing, classes were all messed up because of the missed lunch period... either way Welch wasn't here so we did nothing in Chem; I made up an English quiz in 8th, watched people swim in 9th and laugh because the girls kept loosing in volleyball... then trig was switched to the last period [i wont even try to explain that one] and i interviewed kelly (while doing my math) for my speech on Thursday! and That my friends... and non-friends lol, was my day at school [awesome, right?!] yeah, then i get out of school... go to my car and the little bitch wouldn't start... my car is evil it's almost even with guys and that's a *yo* lol... grr, so anyways after a few tries the stupid thing started... i got so pissed off, then i get home and tell my mom about it and she's like "whatever, we aren't doing anything about it until it DIES completely..." i just about flipped there... i'm like o m f g .. i don't want it to just die, but whatever it just really pissed me off, i never thought i'd get all hyped up about my car or any for that matter, but i guess things change when they make up half of your life and what you do. Then [my mom was just not on my good side earlier] she starts bitching about me not having a job out of NO WHERE... and how i NEVER do ANYTHING around the house, and it really pisses me off bc i do a lot more than i use to and no one notices and gr! anyways, my dad is goin to be setting up a little consection stand thing with stuff like we use to have at our restraunt this summer, and well she thinks i should get a job there... i have no problem with that and i'm like fine, whatever really... i need money and i always said if he still had the business that i would want to do something for money. well then i'm like where would it be and she's like oh well either by Rosh's or in Elmira, and I just was like eh I don't wnat to go to Elmira that would be stupid... and she Flipped on me again bc i wouldnt go to elmira to work and i flipped out... bc what would be the use... my dad is a cheap basterd and the money i would make going all the way up to elmira would probably barely pay for the gas money let alone be any profit towards me... *argh* whatever... Anyways, on a different note... why has everyone been going tanning lately... is this the new "thing" anymore. I see anyone from my best friends to other people just going. I mean, what is the point... summer is in a few months [don't pay attention to the weather or let it fool you]... it's like the new in thing for a ticket to faster death... "oh, please let me bake in a man made oven so i can turn crispy brown or red and in a few years bitch because i have 10 different cancers" ... seriously, what is the use... and as much as you'd LIKE to think you look beautiful and so sexy all tan... you look fake and sometimes orange... but hey, it's not my body... if you'd like to kill yourself faster, look fake, and bake for hours a week ... you go for it... i'll stick to the natural sunlight... even if it is unhealthy, it's got to be better than tanning booths! just watched the last Real World Los Vegas show, it was so sad... I actually liked all of them, next season will probably suck. ah - back to studying for GERMAN 11 Let Me Know

a monday [31 Mar 2003|09:15pm] [ mood | disappointed ] +++too many voices - it won't take long - which one's right, which one's wrong - yours is most likely to be misunderstood - screaming in tongues on the top of my lungs til i find you, til you found me - somehow i always knew that you would and i am contemplating matters - all this cling and clatter - in my head and what you said - is ringing ringing faster - and it's all good if you would stop the world from making sense - and if i could just realize - it doesn't really matter - if i could touch - the sound of silence now you know i would if i knew how - to make these intentions come around - i'm hearing without listening and believing every word - you are not saying - speaking without a sound - trapped inside of these four walls - ... dancing like an angel would...+++ Let Me Know

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